Yet again I have to disappoint my best friend.
Since I started performing, my schedule has been a host of classes, rehearsals, and shows. I take time to enjoy myself but barely do I get to do it with my friends. Why? Because our schedules and work requirements are different. My day starts after lunch and ends late into the evening. My shows are usually on the weekends and I have morning classes on Saturdays. Hence, I cannot party on a Friday night. And I'm drained come Saturday night. Usually my friends, have to tell me weeks in advance of get-togethers so I can arrange my schedule.
This wednesday, I was not supposed to be at Steps at that particular time, but I was there and so was this director. He was not able to cast me for a Philippine show because I didn't match the looks needed. Instead, on the spot, he offered me a role in a Singapore show. I had to leave by Sunday night to be there for the Monday rehearsal. The work load and the role I was playing was not diffucult. All expenses paid, this was like a free vacation. A vacation I could spend with my bestfriend based in Singapore who I have not visited. Problem is, I would have to stay for around 5 weeks. I had to give my confirmation within that day.
If i went, i would cause problems for four groups --- An events firm, My students at T.H.I.S., CCP Dance School, and Ballet Philippines. If I went, I would cause problems for a myriad of people and 6 programs, one of which has 10 shows. If I went, my technique which has improved would suffer from the very limited technical requirements of the show. If I went, my commitment to dance would be in question and impede my progress into the Ballet Philippines Company.
If I went, I would have made one person happy. If I went, maybe I wouldn't feel miserable.
I declined.
6 comments:
maybe you could post scheds of your shows here?
this is the second time u've passed a chance to work/study out of the country. but twas all for very unselfish reasons. while reading ur post i suddenly remember this quote from the alchemist:
"when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it"
and maybe choosing this other path (the road less likely to be taken, to loosely quote Frost) will open other doors of opportunity that are meant for ur taking.
ps: sounds very "om"/yoga-ish, i know
anonymous,
this Dec, i have three shows...
-my student's showcase on Dec 15
-a walk on role in Ballet Philippine's "And the Winner Is..." from Dec 8 to 17, CCP Main Theater
-as Stepmother in Cinderella for the CCP Dance School, December 16, 1pm, CCP Main Theater (correction: show is at 10am)
if you wanna see me this November, you have to be 7yrs old and invited to the 3 parties i'll host this month.. hehe
hopefully, next year i'll have more shows. hopefully, it's because i'll be part of the company.
Cheers!
peej
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Weye,
this is actually the 4th opportunity in 3 years.
Crazy noh?
your reasons for passing up on such kind of opportunity is admirable.
can you also post the schedule of your shows in 2007?
As of now, I have one show lined up for the first quarter of 2007 and it's for FEU, a dance concert featuring the STEPS repertoire. I'll post my show scheds when they happen. Hopefully, I am cast in BP's Espana Extension first week of March.
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