I still can't get over how I managed to direct two plays last march for my elementary and high-school students. With the crazy schedule and the unique personalities of my students, I didn't think we could top Lion King of the previous year. But, boy, did the parents enjoy the shows. They laughed, they weeped and they clapped with joy.
This euphoria from directing is making me reconsider my focus on dance. The dance floor is calling me, but so is acting and directing. However, the opportunities in dance are the ones knocking on my door. I just wish I got into performing long ago and not after graduating college. But what can I do? The choices I make have serious consequences and major repurcussions. I have to choose. Then, I will have to stand by it. What else can I do?
P.S. I have an asshole friend and, apparently, he is hurting another friend of mine and dragging other people into the fray. This is crazy!
3 comments:
yeah…life’s really about choices. making choices for life may be full of twists and turns but you can just play it by the ear…it's always more fun not knowing what to expect and deciding what to do as we go along.
hope you don’t mind but here’s my 2 cents’ worth…if you really care for your friends you can’t just turn a blind eye so, why don’t you go the extra mile and try to help resolve the conflict.
Peace! (~.~)
"There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven: A time to give birth and a time to die; A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted. A time to kill and a time to heal; a time to tear down and a time to build up. A time to weep and a time to laugh; a time to mourn and a time to dance. ... A time to love and a time to hate; a time to war and a time for peace." (Ecc 3:1-8)
"it's always more fun not knowing what to expect and deciding what to do as we go along. " --- Yeah. Although not knowing can be a bit stressful, it definitely is more fun.
As for your 2 cents' worth, I'm way ahead of you.. hehe! It seems everyone may just get along. It couldn't be helped though that some of the relationships aren't what they used to be. :(
Hi Peej,
Choices like that are rather difficult. I guess you really have to come to terms with a number of things, not the least of which is "Why am I doing what I'm doing?"
If you'll indulge me a wee diatribe, read on.
From your blog, it seems that dance seems to be your passion. Not interest, not your hobby, but your passion. Where does your heart lie? The author Michael Ondaatje describes it best when he writes, 'the heart is an organ of fire.' Stop to think about things, and wonder where your heart is. Does your interest in directing burn with the same intensity as when you think about dance? Will you afford it the same commitment? If the answer is a resounding yes, then great. More art for this world. Ultimately, it boils down to how much you're willing to contribute to the arts, and determining what capacity you'll do it in. Are you a performer, or would you rather be the creative force guiding the performer? And remember, before becoming the latter, it helps that you've mastered the former! Are you there yet? Finally, it's also important to know whether you have enough internal resources to marshall success in them.
It can be frustrating. People who are inherently creative often suffer from optional paralysis--so many avenues of expression to consider. Theatre, art, dance, literature...opportunities stretch before you. Having said all this, who's to say that you have to blinker yourself and choose just one? They are not mutually exclusive; nothing is ever absolute. Like the study of comparative literature, the experience of participating in one discipline becomes richer by your participation in another. Your canvas to express, by virtue of these discrete faculties working together, is larger. And wouldn't that be ideal?
Think of: Herbert Ross, Stanley Donnen, Robert Marshall, Michael Bennett, and especially the great Bob Fosse-- all dancer directors. Can you imagine how great the loss would have been if these people stuck with just dancing? Well, maybe not Rob Marshall.
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